Thursday, April 26, 2018

Things I've Learned in the Last Year

It's been almost a year since I rather abruptly stopped blogging. At this distance, the truth can be told: I was ordered to stop writing by the CEO of the agency I was then working for. A lot of water has passed under the bridge, and while I have many thoughts about him, that agency, the circumstances surrounding the edict, and the general pusillanimity of certain types of executives in certain fields, I have learned, or rather re-learned, that in general, if my motivations are reasonably spiritual and my actions are mostly in line with those motivations, my life will, eventually, get better. And it has.

I have probably grown more in the last year than in any previous year of my life. The result has been a level of manageability and, yes, happiness that I cannot recall enjoying for any great length of time at any previous point in my life. My life is not perfect, and neither am I, and there are still days, and periods within days, where I can feel anxious, disturbed, angry, etc. But in general, the serenity promised as a result of the way of life that I embarked on nearly two decades ago has become, unbelievably to me, the norm rather than the exception. And that has been a direct result of practicing open-mindedness on a scale I never really have before, and by a much fuller acceptance of the idea that most of my trouble is of my own making because of not being able to exercise patience, tolerance, and acceptance of other people as they are--not what they should or could be.

And with some time to spare and some experience to share, I've decided to post this. I'm not going to be posting every day, but I did keep the blog alive for a reason--I enjoy writing, and I do sometimes have something beyond mundane triviality to write about. And truthfully, being able to say that I have learned a great deal about how to live a better life is very much a major thing; how many people can truly say that they have several epiphanies--and been able to incorporate and practice the knowledge gained in said epiphanies-- in their mid-50's, or at any other time in their life for that matter? I have a renewed appreciation for a sentiment first expressed by Bob Dylan fifty years ago; I feel a lot younger now than I have for most of my life. Or put another way, it's what you learn after you know it all that counts the most.

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