Monday, January 23, 2017

The Next Chapter

This morning, I officially start my new job. I wish I had one more day off between the old one and the new; I definitely am very, very tired and could have used a day of R&R today, but on the other hand, it will be good to have a weekend off this weekend. I'm not totally sure what this week is going to bring, either; I've been told it's going to be a little paperwork and a lot of case file reading for a few days, and in a week or so I will start picking up my case load.
This week the hours are going to be more or less 9 to 5; the flexible part of the schedule will kick in as the case load picks up. It will be a bit of an adjustment this week, for us and for the dog, but I would rather it happened now, several weeks before Lauren comes home, then while she is trying to get acclimate, like what happened in April when I first started working for the agency. Between orientation and getting used to working nights, it was a factor in the problems that arose between us then; I should be more or less in the new groove in four weeks.
I don't know necessarily how I feel today, other than tired. In the long term, I am sure I will be happier; as much as the night shift job had its advantages, it was still night shift with the attendant physical toll, and the prospects for advancement seemed rather limited. I will be forever grateful to the staff there; it was a good place to work. Most of the kids I worked with there were a pleasure to be around, and those that weren't--well, I have to remember who I work for, and that every kid in the program is in it because of some trauma or issue.
But this job is going to be more challenging and more interesting, I believe. And it will be undoubtedly be better for me to come home to at night. My normal work day, once cases are established, is probably going to be something more along the lines of 10 to 6, and it can broken up as needs to be--which is the type of job I had at Berkshire for a long time, and one I frankly do better with. The people that I am going to be working with all appear to be good people, too. There's a little bit of concern, I guess, that's normal when you start any new job. But I am sure it is due to unfamiliarity rather than any fear that it's going to suck or that I can't do the job.
I just hope the fact that I forgot to set the automatic start for the coffee pot this morning is not a harbinger of what kind of day it's going to be. But the fact that I am going to be able to start every day with a pot of coffee, rather than spend three or four mornings a week trying to get a few hours of sleep, is already a bonus.
And I am glad I work for an outfit where so many different programs and types of jobs exist, where one can move around to jobs that are substantially different and not have to go through the hassle of actually changing employers. A campus-based job is going to be much different than community residential, and looking ahead five years, it's the type of broad-based experience that helps move up in the agency. But that's for the future.
Today, I just want to get a day under my belt, and then come home at the end of the day and go to bed in the evening. And then do it again, and again, and again. The reality of the change won't take, in a positive sense, until Wednesday night, when instead of trudging into work at 10:30 PM, I will be settling into bed with the dog at my feet to go to sleep. And that is going to be the moment when I know beyond doubt that the decision to change jobs will have been worth it.

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